Forgiveness

Trying to tap into forgiveness this week. Something I need to work on a lot. I'm checking videos on YouTube but it's mostly religious videos. :/

Here is something I enjoyed:
"Forgiveness is giving up the hope the past could be any different."

Broken Heart

Interesting article on LA Times about broken hearts:
http://articles.latimes.com/2005/feb/13/opinion/ed-heart13

Love thyself

“I don't want to be with someone
who splatters their pain
across the Internet”
he said,
smirking

“And I don't want to be with someone
who could never get me”
I said,
turning to leave
letting myself feel
his disapproval
echo in my body
Letting it hit my heart
but not take home in me

Here is the thing my friends
Some of you
want me to assure you
that becoming more and more you
is going to go pleasantly
that you will end up
not only loving yourself
but be more adored
and your life will open
beautifully

And that is lovely
but just not guaranteed
In fact, quite the contrary
As you become more
you
there is a high probability
that it will trigger
those around you
and when people are triggered
they can come at you
with all their
disappointment
hate
and just plain
dissatisfaction

And I can tell you
it doesn’t feel good
And I can also tell you
it still feels better
way better
than trading
me
for
the chance
that you might like
who I am pretending
to be

Because sometimes
in the most precious
of moments
I get seen

And it feels better
then a million
sweet empty
somethings

And it carries me
through moments
like these
when my heart cracks open
and someone gets in
who has blatant disregard
for that which I hold dear

Someone
who just
doesn’t get it
get me

And I get it now
I understand
This my friends,
this is how you know
if someone
is a person for you

Because some will retract
and some will lean in
as you reveal
more of you

Choose the ones
that lean in

Yes this
please

Choose
the ones
that lean
in

by Emily Rosen

Power in Loneliness

Your Loneliness is Your Superpower.
Stop reaching for shallow, temporary fulfillment.
Stop avoiding your emptiness through distraction, or trying to numb it with things and people that have no capacity to love you in the way you’re aching to be loved.

There are treasures hiding in your sorrow, let yourself break open to them. All the way open, until you have no other option but to dance with the darkness inside you. Until your hunger drives you to plunge your tongue into the sweet, sticky pot of chaos in your heart. Until you savor your aloneness like wild honey on the tongue.

Transform your craving for love into POWER.
And rock your loneliness.
Full out.
Because when you realize you are everything already, then…bravely curate the connections that aren’t nourishing you. Shift them, or let them go.

Loneliness is kindling for the fire of desire; stoke it, and put your breath upon its flames. Feel it burn away what’s holding you back from love. Acquaint yourself with what you really want, and point your needle there.

Relish in the sumptuousness of yourself. Breathe into your belly, that tender bowl of wisdom and longing, and love it. Oh my goodness, love it.

See that your loneliness is a vast and holy temple.

Kneel upon its steps. Inhale the crisp air of possibility.

And when you’re ready, let it fill with light. Only light.

by Eva Clay

The Dangers of Closing your Heart

15 Difficult Feelings that mean you’re Evolving

This article is completely related to what I am going through these past 2 years.