The only real unconditional love is your own inner stillness, your own inner awareness and acceptance.

Suffering is seeking and expecting love from others while still judging and denying ourselves internally.

calloused

You always wonder, 'What could I have done differently?' But there's also the healthier part that says, 'You integrate it, and you get on.' You never get over it, you just get used to it. You get calloused, a little bit harder maybe, so be on guard for that. But take these tragic things and turn them into something meaningful and worthy of the loss. Make it count. From here on out, do the best you can to make it count."

Mark Ruffalo

Forgiveness

Trying to tap into forgiveness this week. Something I need to work on a lot. I'm checking videos on YouTube but it's mostly religious videos. :/

Here is something I enjoyed:
"Forgiveness is giving up the hope the past could be any different."

RIP Mary Tyler

New Year's Eve retrospective

20 questions for New Year’s Eve

1. What was the single best thing that happened this past year?
2. What was the single most challenging thing that happened?
3. What was an unexpected joy this past year?
4. What was an unexpected obstacle?
5. Pick three words to describe this past year.
6. Pick three words your partner would use to describe your year—don’t ask them; guess based on how you think your spouse sees you.
7. Pick three words your partner would use to describe their year—again, without asking.
8. What were the best books you read this year?
9. Who were your most valuable relationships with?
10. What was your biggest personal change from January to December of this past year?
11. In what way(s) did you grow emotionally?
12. In what way(s) did you grow spiritually?
13. In what way(s) did you grow physically?
14. In what way(s) did you grow in your relationships with others?
15. What was the most enjoyable part of your work (both professionally and at home)?
16. What was the most challenging part of your work (both professionally and at home)?
17. What was your single biggest time waster in your life this past year?
18. What was the best way you used your time this past year?
19. What was biggest thing you learned this past year?
20. Create a phrase or statement that describes this past year for you.

Broken Heart

Interesting article on LA Times about broken hearts:
http://articles.latimes.com/2005/feb/13/opinion/ed-heart13

Being Solitary

"Being solitary is being alone well: being alone luxuriously immersed in doings of your own choice, aware of the fullness of your won presence rather than of the absence of others. Because solitude is an achievement."

— Alice Koller